ziphi renata @ziphi@vulpine.club

#Introductions !
Hey! I'm Ren.

I'm a grey fox, an artist (primarily with watercolor, ink, and acrylics), a nonbinary trans girl, and I dabble in just about everything creative. I also struggle with severe depression and use platforms like this to discuss and process it.

I have a terrible tendency to avoid initiating social interactions, but please, feel free to talk with me! I'll open up rather quickly.

Heya!
If you like my art and want to show some support (or even if you like my ramblings), I have a Ko-fi!

https://ko-fi.com/ziphiren

Any contributions are greatly appreciated!
And if you want to show support in other ways, boosts, likes, and comments are always welcome!

Thanks,
Ren

Casual reminder that there is a Sting album that starts with "If you love someone set them free" and ends with "if I've built this fortress around your heart, encircled you with trenches and barbed wire."

I've got twenty-five bucks and a cracker.
Do you think it's enough to get us there?

I like music when I'm stressed the heck out.

Here's my favorite Kansas song:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jseTa7HUIDU

It is possible to be fighting for a just cause (or one that you see as just) and still be very toxic about it.

Please try not to be a toxic person. If you hurt the people around you because they express anger in different ways than you, then you're much more an immediate problem to them than whatever it is you are angry about.

This isn't to say that anger is *wrong,* because it can be pretty damn justified. But the ways you act on it can still be unjustifiable.

I need to get a job soon, so I can make some dough. Then maybe I'll have some bread in my wallet.

Does David Bowie was furry?

I've seen that Diamond Dogs cover.

I'm in the mood for some David Bowie.

Golden years~
Gold, whop whop whop!

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ApHM1ct4tdM

Well, I finally saw the news.

Yeah... I'm not gonna lie here - legally declaring gender to be immutable and based on genetics and genitalia is a power move that's going to let them be able to start doing whatever the heck they want.

But, if there can possibly be any good in it, a legal definition doesn't have to mean that applies outside a legal context. And let's hope that it is something enacted quickly by the President, rather than in the Supreme Court or by Congress.

Because if it can be done so easily, then it can be undone just as easily. Hopefully our next President will be able to untangle some of this mess.

Until then, stay strong. ​

It seems to be a common fixture in my dreams to be driving some sort of vehicle (usually a car), and to have to engine pushing forward so much that the breaks are only effective enough to slow it down, rather than stop it completely. A bunch of worrying about collisions follows.

Oh heck, I should do a couple of self care things today. I was in a bad place last night.

I really should sleep. Nothing good will come of this mood.
Goodnap.

There are so many people who are just content with their lives, as if nothing really matters, and I don’t understand how.

Why the hell do I have to be so broken? Why do other people get to be happy instead?

Why is it that when my emotions are out of joint, I am less likely to do the things which stabilize them and make them better?

You designed a bad system, nature.

I need sleep.
Now I sleep.

It might be because it's well past six in the morning, but I am giggling like heck.

Job Interviewer: So tell me, what skills do you have?
Me:

Somebody somewhere decided that having low-rate random drops in a video game was a good idea.

My brain is the sort of brain that is not good at putting things down or changing focus once it starts something, even if that something is ultimately pointless.

This combination is capable of great evils.

Feelings are messed up tonight. Hard to parse.

Maybe it's because I just went through a story about some happy girlfriends, but I kinda wish I could be romantic.

Then again, that could be the little low-self-esteem goblin hiding out somewhere in my brain, wishing I could feel important to someone else, because I have trouble feeling that about myself.

This is a feeling I've had a lot before.

Life goals.
Gentle Wolf: kind-hearted and strong.

(Still gonna keep recommending Nami Tsuki's Lonely Wolf Treat games. The fifth one is out now and I'm playing it for the first time!)