Ren @ziphi@vulpine.club

Heya!
If you like my art and want to show some support (or even if you like my ramblings), I have a Ko-fi!

https://ko-fi.com/ziphiren

Any contributions are greatly appreciated!
And if you want to show support in other ways, boosts, likes, and comments are always welcome!

Thanks,
Ren

#Introductions !
Hey! I'm Ren.

I'm a grey fox, an artist (primarily with watercolor, ink, and acrylics), a nonbinary trans girl, and I dabble in just about everything creative. I also struggle with severe depression and use platforms like this to discuss and process it.

I have a terrible tendency to avoid initiating social interactions, but please, feel free to talk with me! I'll open up rather quickly.

The original Star Fox for the SNES is janky as heck, but I love it. Even if it runs at five FPS.

Named my Snivy "Bay." He has an Impish nature, raising defense at the cost of special attack. Won the battle against Hugh's Tepig. And from there it's out of Aspertia City and on to Route 19, where I caught Sleepy the Patrat.

After a little bit of training, I moved on to the next town. But before I could get there, I was accosted by a stranger who called himself Alder. He had fabulous Super Saiyan hair. He promised to train me, and led me into Floccesy Town. Instead of following him though, I immediately went to the Pokemon Center, because this is a Nuzlocke and I need to HEAL.

Before I could train though, I had to find Hugh to give him his town map. So on to Route 20! Where the first thing I encountered was a wild trainer. Heck.

After a couple of quick low-level battles, it was time to meet the third Pokemon for my party, Pilfur the Purrloin. Next, while searching Floccesy Ranch for Hugh, I met another new team member: Ava the Pidove. I'll be honest, this was not the Pokemon I was hoping for from here. The very next Pokemon I encountered was a Riolu. Heck.

At last, I found Hugh, who wanted to battle. His Tepig got a crit against Sleepy, and I was met with my first loss. Ava got revenge, growing to level eight.

And with that, I'm done with my first session

Starting a Nuzlocke of Pokemon White 2, because it's the one I've played the least! Rolled a 5, so I'm starting with Snivy, which happens to be my favorite of the gen 5 starters.

As much as I hate the cold weather, it happens to be very good for drinking hot tea.

The extreme agitation that I’ve been going through the last few days seems to have finally subsided.

Depression is still there, but it’s manageable enough on its own.

Power went off at work. I’m getting paid to wait around.

Missed meds last night. Fell asleep without taking care of myself.

Had a hard time waking up. Even had dreams about being awake but falling asleep.

Gonna be a rough day at work.

I feel not just like I don’t belong, but actively unwelcome by the people around me.

There is nothing to indicate this is true outside of a paranoid and misanthropic state of mind, but the feeling is persistent.

I should find someplace to go which fits me better.

Okay. ziphi’s brain is currently worked up and expecting hostility from everyone for no good reason. Need to nap.

Today is a misanthropy day. Yippee.

What is it with people dividing each other into arbitrary groups and then tearing each other down?

It is pretty much the only thing humans are good at.

I wish I had all the right words to help friends and make things right.

Ugh, work again. This work thing seems to be happening on a regular basis.