Vikxin 🏳️‍🌈 @vikxin@vulpine.club

Feeling really bad about myself

idk maybe I'm just bad at polyam

I still have a lot of people I'm crushing on too, but everything feels so out of reach again. Especially because a lot of those (polyam) people are already dating other people for much longer so I feel like I'd be a tertiary kind of partner. I'd have no primary.

But at the same time I feel like the lingering negativity in our relationship over the past 6 months or so has really done a lot to hurt too, so I'm not sure how much there was left in this relationship. Though I have some other sorta-relationships I don't have nearly as close a bond with anyone else.

And it's honestly got me terrified for going forward with my life basically at all in the vicinity of them going forwards too. It's taken a huge large lot out of me and. It really sucks. It's gonna take time to get back and it's left me without nearly as good support to fall back on.

so some of you may be aware of the fact that my partner kind of had a breakdown all over me for two months and it's been giving me a really tough time. It's made me not so bullish about having a continued relationship with them even if we are apart for several months at this point.

I guess I'm going to MFF?

LB: this client is very nice so far.

Cats are good. Big cats are big good.

I kinda wanna make a GBC game. But what would I even make?

Bored and lonely: the Vikxin story