I don't know if I'm asking for help or just complaining, but what's difficult is that as time goes on, I realize more and more there are inescapable truths that plague me.
1. I will always struggle with mental illness.
2. I am fundamentally of low value to the society I live in.
3. I will always have to rely on help from others because I am incapable of caring for myself.
Individuals value me, and are willing to help me, but I can never pay this back. I know a lot of my complaints and feelings are just depression, but I fear that they don't understand that I will literally ALWAYS cost them. I don't want to be a burden, but I always will have a cost greater than my ability to make up for.
I need to find where I can buy sushi-grade fish.
@rey Congrats. xD
I am moving posts I made a long time ago to my current blog, backdating them appropriately. Here's the first one I've moved, a post-mortem from two game jams I learned a lot from: https://blog.tangentfox.com/breakable-objects-walls-a-one-hour-game-jam-post-mortem/
It looks like clickbait, but I honestly feel a lot more hope about the future after watching this video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-k-V3ESHcfA
I enabled my old website again, because it was very irresponsible of me to keep people away from their craft uploads. Sorry it took so long. https://guard13007.com/gaming/ksp/crafts
I published a post about some stellar procedural generation stuff I came up with: https://blog.b64.win/semi-empirical-stellar-equations/ (note: the future domain of this blog will be blog.tangentfox.com)
Me: *trying to calculate aerodynamic drag in low earth orbit*
(It's been hours.)
Me: *finally looks up scientific papers on it instead of trying to derive it herself*
Oh, science hasn't really worked this one out. We just monitor it and keep boosting satellites or they re-enter. I mean, that's not to say there hasn't been progress, it's just very complicated, and current estimates appear to be quite off.
I'm bad at keeping bios up to date, so look here: https://blog.tangentfox.com/about/
The Vulpine Club is a friendly and welcoming community of foxes and their associates, friends, and fans! =^^=