bunker time: y1, d200, plague (+) 

The latest plague test came back negative, so that's good.

re: bunker time: y1, d219, math 

Meeting with a well-known professor who my professor works with to talk about my thesis and seek a letter of recommendation went SO SO SO much better than I expected!

re: bunker time: y1, d221, foxnip, blaseball 

time for: fox candies, an outstanding apple pie, the absurdness of blaseball, and Borat 2: Borat Harder

re: bunker time: y1, d221, extremely weird 

"I am a transhumanist because I do not have enough hubris not to try to kill God."

What happened to those days?

I suppose what happened was that as it turned out, almost everyone who went into AI research ended up either being incredibly buyable by the threat-of-force industry or extremely exploitable by someone who was.

re: bunker time: y1, d224 

First snow of the season today.

bunker time: y1, d224, mh(~), gross 

I keep forgetting that forgetting to take my meds makes everything else much, much harder

like math, or keeping myself and my apartment clean

or remembering to take my meds

thank fuck that's over with for the moment, as evidenced by the fact that this past weekend I finally cleaned out my sink completely

including cleaning away quite a lot of mold growth :S

bunker time: y1, d228, dreams 

Trying to meet up with Borat in a universe where almost everyone around me acted like the pseudo-Kazakhstani. I ran into college friends, too, and was relieved, because everyone else was hypersexual, incredibly stupid, and generally disgusting.

bunker time: y1, d229, mh (~) 

Does anyone else ever wake up with the feeling that something isn't right for no obvious reason?

Like, the same feeling you get listening to a stringed instrument tuned slightly off, or food that's just a touch undersalted. That kind of thing.

bunker time: y1, d229, timekeeping 

I always stay up to watch the hour setback and pushforward.

bunker time: y1, d229, timekeeping 

I'm going to hold on to the bunker time calendar after this is over.

bunker time: y1, d229, uspol, plague 

No matter what happens next week, I don't think I'll ever forget that in the middle of a literal plague, the referendum on whether or not we should become an autocracy, the vote was *remotely close*.

bunker time: y1, d230, uspol, vague, (-) 

Come tomorrow night, I want Them to suffer as we have suffered, to mourn as we have mourned, to fear rightly for Their futures and Their legacies and Their ways of life as we have done for the last four years.

I want Them to hurt, and to fear. I want Them to wail, and rage, and dash Themselves to bloody flinders against the forces of the law.

I want for Them to regret deeply and sincerely having continued to fight this cold civil war, to have gleefully violated the pact of tolerance that kept our society together to some lesser or greater extent becaues they found some benefit in it.

I want for tomorrow night to be the beginning of Their end, the last act in this hundred-and-sixty year war, or else the end of all things on this pale blue dot.

bunker time: y1, d230, uspol, vague, (-) 

I have not and would not claim to be a good or kind person.

bunker time: y1, d230, uspol, vague, (-) 

But neither am I under any delusions that this cold civil war, regardless of any heating that may come, is a total one, one without quarter asked for or given.

bunker time: y1, d230, uspol, vague, (-) 

Not for nothing have I taken to calling myself an end scholar.

bunker time: y1, d230, vague, (-) 

What was it like, I wonder, to live through the Bronze Age Collapse? Delicate webs of civilization-sustaining trade wrecked by climate shift and consequent war, each societal dissolution fueling the next crash? What was it like to live through the end of all things?

bunker time: y1, d230, vague, mh (-) 

What I'm saying is that no, I'm not OK.

bunker time: y1, d231, uspol 

time now for the quadriennial ritual where we all scream at each everyone we know as if it will help, relive trauma from the last time, and minimally-invested voters from half a dozen small-to-mid-sized states pick the next ruler of the US-EU-UK bloc.

bunker time: y1, d232, uspol 

Well, I'm not crying and traumatized, so that's an improvement over last go-round thus far

bunker time: y1, d233, mild woo 

I will never not feel called out by reality with respect to the fact that there's a pretty clear seelie/unseelie-class aesthetic moiety divide in the Seattle postfurry.

bunker time: y1, d236 timekeeping 

As of this morning, it is now BLARTS (Bunker (Lorxus and @rey ) Time (Standardized)) T +20 megaseconds.

bunker time: y1, d236 timekeeping 

@rey (I forgot to mark T +2^24 , which was on the evening of September 27, 2020)

bunker time: y1, d236, uspol 

I wonder what that alternate-universe Lorxus is doing right now, the one in the timeline where The Orange won

bunker time: y1, d240, timekeeping 

BLARTS Day 240. 6 quarantines.

bunker time: y1, d242, foxposting, math 

Helped a friend with some hunting practice today. I found it simple but satisfying.

bunker time: y1, d246, mh (+) 

FINALLY got through to see a therapist for the first time in about 5 years. I think the intake went well, but I didn't realize just how much of @makyo 's archness I absorbed.

bunker time: y1, d249, foxposting, mathposting 

Behind as fuck on paper revision and math pset. I've taken down worse. I'm feeling, for the first time in a long time, even a little like a proper hunter of truths.

bunker time: y1, d249, idle thoughts 

I can't believe we live in a timeline where a major kind of embryonic machine intelligence is homophonic for a swear word in Mandarin Chinese.

bunker time: y1, d249, idle thoughts(-) 

I got slightly nostalgic and watched some of Who Speaks For Earth of Sagan's Cosmos. I used to mourn Sagan's loss. But listening to -

"In the last two centuries abject slavery, which was with us for thousands of years, has almost entirely been eliminated in a stirring world wide revolution. Women, systematically mistreated for millennia, are gradually gaining the political and economic power traditionally denied to them. And some wars of aggression have recently been stopped or curtailed because of a revulsion felt by the people in the aggressor nations. The old appeals to racial, sexual and religious chauvinism and to rabid nationalism are beginning not to work. A new consciousness is developing which sees the earth as a single organism and recognizes that an organism at war with itself is doomed."

Nah. Not that I can tell. It was a brief fever dream of the 80s and 90s, and then done away with, to the best of my perception, and we live in the result.

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bunker time: y1, d249, idle thoughts(-) 

Thank the gods he didn't have to see any of this. Thank the gods he didn't have to see how right and how wrong he was.

bunker time: y1, d249, a supposition I keep coming back to (--) 

What if this is a dead world spinning, and has been since the late 19th century? What if the last hope we had to reach the stars was to avoid any or all of the failure of Reconstruction, the Crimean War, the Franco-Prussian War, the Taiping Rebellion, the Scramble for Africa, the War of the Triple Alliance, and the Gilded Age?

bunker time: y1, d250, timekeeping 

Two hundred fifty days of plague.

bunker time: y1, d253, gun-adj 

Oh hey, my rear bag arrived!

bunker time: y1, d253, gun-adj, dreams 

Also: the Jaw showed up on my dreams last night. I don't quite remember why.

bunker time: y1, d256, timekeeping 

2^8 days now.

bunker time: y1, d266, timekeeping 

How strange, to still keep the anniversary of a pain that the one who caused it has surely long since forgotten.

bunker time: y1, d266, timekeeping 

@starkatt Love you too, vix.

bunker time: y1, d266, timekeeping 

Also, to be clear: this isn't about Pearl Harbor, even a little bit.

bunker time: y1, d266, gun mention 

Gods, I wish I could fucking go shooting without worrying about the plague.

bunker time: y1, d271, gun mention 

Yeah, this hasn't changed even a little.

bunker time: y1, d271, timekeeping 

It's been

Nine months since the quarantine

Locked myself in my house to try to save me

bunker time: y1, d272, LDBG, food 

Ran out for groceries and forgot my keys and headset, so I spent a tense half an hour or so in the grocery store before emerging unscathed.

Vaguely related: did you know that you can just make your own vanilla cola?

bunker time: y1, d279, glowtide, mh (-) 

Having some complicated thoughts today about community and distance. Getting some loneliness; doubts creeping in about how much (or whether) I'm really welcome.

bunker time: y1, d279, glowtide, mh (-) 

Do I get to be part of a community I'm physically far from, or am I just deluding myself again? What if I'm just being tolerated, all over again? What do people say of me, when I'm not there?

bunker time: y1, d279, glowtide, mh (-) 

Please be so kind as not to just say I'm welcome. Words are nothing but wind.

bunker time: y1, d279, glowtide, loneliness, plague 

I was supposed to be there with the rest of you, and then a plague happened, and I know it's the least important possible thing to be upset about here but still.

bunker time: y1, d279, glowtide, loneliness, the obvious dangerous implication is not true 

Sometimes I wonder how long it would take for anyone to actually notice if I just vanished suddenly.

bunker time: y1, d279, glowtide, loneliness, the obvious dangerous implication is not true, seeming non-sequitur 

German surely has a word for that thing that cats and other small colonial predators sometimes do where they go hide somewhere to die.

bunker time: y1, d279, not exclusviely glowtide, mh(-) 

me: I must offer something of value to this community I feel myself to be at the edges of, so that they will not reject me

also me: I will never be fully sure whether I am accepted in this community that I feel myself to be at the edges of because of the thing of value I brought, why does this keep happening to me

bunker time: y1, d279, not exclusviely glowtide, mh(-) 

@lorxus :blobcatheart:

... you don't need to Bring Value, value exchange honestly isn't the point.

bunker time: y1, d279, glowtide, woo, mh(-) 

tbh I'm kinda hoping we fail tonight and the sun just doesn't come back

wouldn't fimbulwinter just be the cherry on top of this shit sundae of a year

(which will still be the best year in the next decade)

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