Lux phifollen @_sharpLimefox@vulpine.club

I finally have a reference sheet! Sorta complete, sorta not, I still plan on adding stuff in the future.

"Congratulations! You have reached your weekly gone of thwarting one (1) panic attack!"

Anxiety fox :<

Moral of the day : never update the NVidia driver.

There comes a time in every furry artist's life where you just have to open google, type in "deer penis", and click "Search".

I finally have a reference sheet! Sorta complete, sorta not, I still plan on adding stuff in the future.

The fact that I can't keep dealing with this might be because recent, school-related events have reignited the more anxiety-oriented aspect of whatever complex of issues I'm dealing with.
And I've never been good at dealing with anxiety. Ever since I was a kid. That's partly why I saw a psychologist as a child. Anxiety just faded away at a certain age but now it comes in spikes, mixed in with all the rest, and it just blows open the door to everything I've managed to securely contain for the past five years. And I don't know how to fight it.

I don't want to have another panick attack. I don't want to go back to that point where everything shuts down and my survival instincts kick in, and the last conscious thought I hear is "and now, you die". I just want to function at least somewhat normally. Please.

I can't sleep. I keep tossing and turning.
Whenever I close my eyes, the thoughts start coming in.
I've rarely said this in the past but I'm at a point where I legitimately cannot deal with this any more. I'm almost at my wit's end.
I need help. Now. Or soon enough.

(but first sleep)

All is fine.

I should make an AD on here, really.

Am I the only one unable to fetch stuff from the #blender development websites? both git.blender.org and developer.blender.org are up (I can ping them) but I get zero response to web/git queries.

Me: Look I elaborated on a sketch! It has lining and colours and-
Also me: All you did was ruin a perfectly good looking sketch! Look, it has holes now!