re: your daily jasmine is sad post, mh and minor parental conflict mention
to clarify: i don't actually tell the people who are messaging me to leave me alone/shut up/etc., i talk to myself out loud for them to leave me alone
but i never actually do that, since i know that'd be a horrible thing to say right to them
your daily jasmine is sad post, mh and minor parental conflict mention
been thinking...now i realize i've been an asshole without entirely realizing it this whole time
a while ago, my mom and dad were arguing with each other, and i spied in on it. it eventually derailed into how my dad gave up trying to have a relationship with me, with him explicitly stating that i did very rude things to him whenever he attempted to do things with me.
at the time, my mom attributed it to my aspergers, and i was in silent agreement with that.
...but now i realize, no, that's not it. my aspergers does make me tough to socialize with, but it doesn't make me cause faces of disgust when attempting to have conversations.
and this issue continues to this day in a sense, whenever someone on discord messages me out of nowhere, i get silently angry and i say verbally (not in call) that they should leave me alone, to stop messaging me, etc.
and now i realize...this is like, horrible. i shouldn't be this way, why am i this way?
and to that...i don't have answers. it might be some other mental illness i'm unaware of, it could be i was just raised incorrectly and i need to just find a way to correct this behavior.
...but at the very least, i know this is going on now. because i didn't before tonight.
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